I never really got university. I had a thoroughly miserable time and with the exception of meeting a few lovely people, it was mostly frustrating and, apart from some of the art I produced, pretty much a waste of time.
None of this information is new. You've heard it a million times before from a whinging and angry me.
But . . .
I left two years ago and the horror of producing art as, at last receded. Since being made unemployed (i say "made" . . .), I spent the first could of weeks recovering from the bullying bitch(es) in my office - mostly playing Skyrim, a week or so being very ill (and recuperating by paying skyrim) and then...something weird happened.
I started making art again. Slowly at first with a couple of sculptural objects, then for the last week or so, I've ben in a total frenzy, pumping out paintings. Paintings? Um. This is a bit of a development.
I don't paint, you see. Well. I didn't paint.
One of the biggest disappointments that university dumped on me was that, contrary to what I was told when I signed up, I received no actual skills tuition. I got in on the strength of the photographic work I'd done, some sculptural objects and the force of my conceptual ideas. Being in a place that would teach me to draw and paint was want I wanted more than anything. However, the Uni decided that drawing, painting and sculpture were passé and we were encouraged to do conceptual work. Not a stretch for me.
Anyway, will never understand how I managed to leave university and still be completely unable to draw and paint. But thats where I am. I have a 2:1 in Fine Art and can't draw or paint. Mental.
So. Suddenly picking up paints, canvasses, etc was something of surprise.
Now the stuff I'm doing isn't that great, I wouldn't expect it to be, but I'm in the bizarre position of never having painted before about 10 days ago and yet because I have this degree and i've trained as an artist, the stuff I"m doing is, without a doubt, art.
Of course. It's not necessarily *good* art. But It is ART!!! because I AM AN ARTIST!!!
I feel like an artist for the first time ever. Will Vigar, BA Fine Art (Hons). Oh yeah.